Amir Sayin; this is my message to you-ou-ou

“When Tomorrow Starts Without Me” 

by 

David Romano

When tomorrow starts without me,

And I’m not there to see,                                                                                       

If the sun should rise and find your eyes

All filled with tears for me;

I wish so much you wouldn’t cry

The way you did today,

While thinking of the many things.

I know how much you love me,

As much as I love you,

And each time you think of me,

I know you will miss me too;

But WHEN TOMORROW STARTS WITHOUT ME,

Please try to understand,

That an angel came and called my name,

And took me by the hand,

And said my place was ready,

In HEAVEN far above

And that I’d have to leave behind

All those I dearly LOVE.

But as I turned to walk away,

A tear fell from my eye

For all my life, I’d always thought,

I didn’t want to die.

I had so much to live for,

So much left yet to do,

It seemed almost impossible,

That I was leaving YOU.

I thought of all the yesterdays,

The good ones and the bad,

The thought of all love we shared,

And all the fun we had.

If I could relive yesterday

Just even for a while,

I’d say good-bye and KISS you

And may be see you SMILE.

But when I fully realized that this could never be,

For emptiness and memories,

Would take the place of me.

And when I thought of worldly things

I might miss come tomorrow,

I thought of you, and when I did

My heart was filled with sorrow.

But when I walked through heaven’s gates

I felt so much at HOME.

When God looked down and smiled at me,

From His great golden throne,

He said, “This is ETERNITY,

And all I’ve promised you.

Today your life on earth is past

But here it starts anew.

I promise no tomorrow,

But today will always last,

And since each day’s the same way,

There is no longing for the past.

You have been so faithful,

So trusting and so true.

Though there were times

You did something

You knew you shouldn’t do.

But you have been forgiven

And now at last you are FREE.

So won’t you come and take my hand

And share your life with me?”

So WHEN TOMORROW STARTS WITHOUT ME,

Don’t think we’re far apart,

For every time you think of me

I’m right here, in your HEART …

BOB MARLEY THREE LITTLE BIRDS

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zaGUr6wzyT8

My First Christmas in Heaven

 This is Amir's mom again sharing Amir's story with you...

 They all told me that the first Holiday will be difficult but nobody said how difficult, specially when it came shortly after his birthday.  It was difficult and painful!!!  So, Talla(sis) planned a Sedona, AZ get away trip for Christmas and this is what I found there to share with Amir's Group: 

                                      My First Christmas In Heaven

I see the countless Christmas trees around the world below with tiny lights

like heaven stars reflecting on the snow.

The sight is so spectacular; please wipe away the tears

for I am spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.

I hear the many Christmas songs that people hold so dear

but the sounds of music, can’t compare with the Christmas choir up here.

I have no words to tell you, of the joy their voices bring

for it is beyond description, to hear the Angels sing.

I know how much you miss me; I see the pain inside your heart

but I am not so far away, we really aren’t apart.

So be happy for me dear ones; you know I hold you dear

and be glad I’m spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.

I sent you each a special gift from my heavenly home above

I sent you each a memory of  MY UNDYING LOVE.

                                    Christmas in Heaven

Tis Christmas in heaven, what a beautiful sight!

I want you to know everything is all right

The Crib is adorned with the brilliance of the stars

wise-men have come from near and far

I’ve met all dear ones who preceded, here

the reunion was lovely, and eventful of cheers.

and tonight we’ll all gather in reverence, we’ll kneel

for the babe in the cradle; up in heaven is real!

I think of my family that I left behind

and I pray that your Christmas is as blessed as mine

Please, shed no more tears for my soul is at rest

yes, it’s Christmas in heaven; so I’ve heard them say

yet, Christmas in heaven happens everyday!!!

 AF

Amir said...

I want everyone to know that I am here, I am available, I am with you.
Everyday is a rebirth. On this day, my 33year b-day of my Amir , I also celebrate every birth & rebirth. How many times are we surely born!
We exit from the ALL & go back to the ALL & we are reborn everyday.

Make your lives a blessing as I bless all of you.
I thank you, I love you for sharing in my journey and sharing it still.
With every kiss, with every smile, with every tears of compassion you are reborn.
Let us all rejoice together and HAPPY BIRTHDAY...

AF

HELLOOOO

Amir's mom saying hello to Amir's group.
75 days ago Amir moved on/up, still I and his sister Talla can't get it. We have asked ourselves and each others so many times that, what had happened! How did it happen! Why did it happen?!? Who knows...
I am getting stories, messages and news that how much his friends and his group are missing him daily. If you miss him this much, I can't find any words to describe myself.

It was overwhelming for us the extent of support, attention, presence and love at his gatherings and after, which is still going on. These gatherings usually are sad events that not so many people like to attend but he had over 300 guests at his green parties.
Of course, his gatherings were so sad but at the same time so beautiful and warm, full of love , light and positive energy because of his happy, warm and loving BEING. He was with us and he didn't let us to break down. We cried and smiled together for AMIR FARIVAR, the smiling guy...

Amir's b-day is coming up. November 16th.is his 33rd birthday. Finally, I am able to find my way to log into his blog;-) and use his iPad as I promised him to continue his legacy and keep in touch with you as Amir's group. His birthday was a new beginning in my life 33yr ago and gave me the bravery to turn into a mother as the most difficult task in this world. Now, because of him I feel brave enough to continue his message of love. Just to start from where we dropped please go back and read his last posting named:life is a bitch but love that bitch...

Talk to you soon and love you all
Amir's mom, Afsaneh

Amir Farivar’s New Life Celebration (Sunday 8/7: 4-8 pm)

Sunday August 7, 2011
Hilton La Jolla Torrey Pines: Fairway Pavilion
10950 North Torrey Pines Road
La Jolla, CA 92037
858-558-1500
4 pm – 8 pm


(Cash Bar; Valet and Self Parking available for a fee)

In lieu of flowers I would like to ask you to make a donation. Your donation will go to a worthy cause related to cancer awareness for young adults.


Online donations, use HealingPAQ, a non-profit organization. www.healingpaq.org/monetary.html
Or mail a check to Healing Paq at 12088 Caminito Campana, San Diego, CA 92128


We are looking forward to seeing you there and watching a beautiful sunset in memory of Amir Farivar


Also, please do not wear black. Amir's request was that we all wear green.

Amir Farivar, with the help of Bob Marley, requests your presence at the celebration of Amir's life...

Rise up this morning,
Smiled with the rising sun,
Three little birds
Pitch by my doorstep
Singing sweet songs
Of melodies pure and true,
Saying, this is my message to you…

Don't worry about a thing,
'Cause every little thing, is gonna be all right."
Don't worry about a thing,
'Cause every little thing, is gonna be all right!"

Amir requested that no one wear black.  He requested that your attire be green.  Green was Amir’s color of healing.  He wore a green bracelet around his right wrist for the entire 15 months he spent healing his body of cancer. 

Date: Friday, August 5, 2011 

Time: Burial service starts at 12 pm - 2:30 pm.

Location: Dearborn Memorial Park

14361 Tierra Bonita Road

Poway, California 92064
(858) 748-5760

www.dearborncemetery.net

Memorial Services will be on Sunday  August 7, 2011.  Information TBD. 

There's no place like home...there's no place like home

I sit here in my brother’s room sharing one of the most profound life experiences with him.  After almost 15 months of a fierce battle with cancer, we have come to the end.  The end that my brother spent months fearing at first, then accepting, preparing for by “packing his backpack” and now welcoming with open arms. 

Dr. G, the family’s therapist/good friend gave us a book last week about the experiences that people go through during the end of life process.  We have been reading this book all week.  Amir especially enjoys it when I read it to him in an animated voice.  This may seem a bit odd to you (Amir’s blog follower) but the book has brought us all so much comfort and peace.  It has taken a lot of the uncertainty out of the equation of dying.  All of the stories are about how peaceful and calming the end of a life can be.  Most of the stories talk about visions that people have when they approach the point when it’s time to leave their current body and float to heaven.  Visions of deceased loved ones coming to them to guide them to heaven.  Well I have been listening to Amir’s comments during his transitioning process very closely and I can tell you this much…

I was hoping that Amir would have the same wonderful visions as the people in the book we read.  I wished and prayed to God that he would share in this experience because when I read him the stories, I could tell that he was intrigued by this phenomenon.  Well, he IS having the experience!

I believe that he sees an angel standing in the doorway to his room.  For the past couple of days he kept asking us “what’s her first name?”  We foolishly thought he was asking what his nurse’s first name was and as much as we said “it’s Nurse T.  Her first name is Nurse T.,” he just wasn’t satisfied.  He wants to know the angel’s first name.  I wish I knew it so I could tell him. 

A bit later he exclaimed that he sees Wolfie.  Wolfie was our dog we had when we were teens.  Amir loved this dog more than anything…probably even more than me!  We unfortunately had to give him away when we downsized to an apartment a few years after adopting Wolfie.   Amir was so broken up over it.  Even a decade after the fact he would still cry when I brought up Wolfie.  Well, Wolfie came to Amir in one of his visions and played with him.  It was really cute to see Amir exclaim “Doggie!  Doggie!”  I love seeing the surprise and joy in his face. 

The last and most profound vision he had today wasn’t a specific person or an object but a message that he wanted to communicate to my mother and me.  He kept repeating, “I have to go home.  I have to go home now.  I have to go home.”  He is telling us that God is calling him to come home.  I kept trying to reassure him that he is home and in his room.  Everything the book told me not to do.  Thankfully my mom was around and told him that she understands he has to go home and we are ok with him leaving us to go home.  It was a powerful moment.  I don’t have the words to explain it properly.  I don’t feel like I’m doing it any justice, but the best way to explain it is relief.  Relief that Amir is not scared or confused one bit.  He knows it’s time to go home and he is letting my mom and me know that he will be departing soon.  

Here are the facts people.  Amir has an amazingly happy life.  From the day he was born until the day he leaves, he will have a smile on his face.  When he was a baby, people used to say that his eyes smiled along with his lips.  I was the cranky kid who never smiled and he was my happy-go-lucky big bro.  Even now that he is really tired, and super low on energy, he manages to paste a beautiful little smile on his gorgeous face.  Once in a while, he will even sneak a kiss onto my cheek.   

He had 32 years of practice to be positive, optimistic, kind, courageous, driven, charismatic and an absolute fighter.  All the traits that carried him through his battle.  He has always been surrounded by people who absolutely love and adore him.  I have been doing his PR lately; returning texts and emails from his friends and family, and I can tell you, the kid has a huge fan base!

To my big brother…it’s been a beautiful life minus a handful of very difficult moments for you this past 15 months.  You are the best brother a girl could ever ask for.  Dad taught you from an early age that I was your "namoos" (sorry no English translation) and you protected me my entire life.  I owe you so much and am grateful for all the lessons you have taught me.  I'm lucky to have had you as my big brother for 30 years.  I love you more than words can describe and the thought of not having you physically in my life is so painful that I can hardly bare it but Boopie  It’s time to go home Brody (yet another nickname).  Catch you on the flip side.

Followers of Amir’s blog, please help us by praying that Amir easily navigates his way home.