Well today is my birthday, yup I live to see another year come to me filled with many adventures...so funny thing is, the past year was filled with adventures too, and some of them I can't remember...chalk it up to my brain telling me "Well we can forget this memory ... for now". Forget, but not without lessons.
A few weeks ago I told you I was going to write about how it felt. To feel, it's what all of us conceive our reality by, touch, smell, and so on...
How did I feel, all of you know I was at a point of tilt in my life...one tilt I was here, one tilt - I'll see you when you get here...well before May 16th I feared one of these tilts, but in the moment I simply felt content and full of purpose. Many months ago I remember hearing an angel ask me to stay here...last weekend it turned out RN was the one who whispered it to me during my drug induced state...hehehe.
Truth is I had so much fearfulness around me and about me, and for the first time in my life I felt purpose for life, a choice to be happy and just be.
How did it feel when Dr H told me I have something in me - a lot of cold chills starting from my testicles all the way up to my crown, but when we were in the moment, all the fear went away. I don't mean I wasn't scared of the unknown. Yes I am, but I am less fearful of the big dirt nap now as I am fearful of not seeing my mom every day, not laughing with my sister about our s.f. inside jokes...and not swimming another lap in a godly cold pool at 7 in the morning.
I once read somewhere that the secret to life is breath...well now I know the secret to life is purpose...purpose to be happy and purpose to just be. Today I'm 32, and my purpose is to heal and be here for a long time and love every moment through it. So here's a happy birthday to me and happy living to all of us...not living with your breath, but living with your purpose and love around us.
Thank you to everyone who called me, emailed me, SMS'd me just to say I love you.
LOVE,
Amir
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“ We must believe that we are gifted for something, and that this thing,
at whatever cost, must be attained. ” - Marie Curie (1867–1934)
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Beautiful... You are very inspirational and we are fortunate that we have you sharing your lessons
ReplyDeleteHappy birthday, with many many more to come...
Jason E.
once again dear amir: i wish you a very very very special happy birthday - and 100 more to follow :D
ReplyDeleteal bo
Yesterday, when I woke up just THANKED GOD for being able to celebrate his birthday with him.
ReplyDeleteHe is teaching me how to live, love and just be happy no matter what. Life is full of surprises, positive and negative and Amir is going through them gracefully. I hope your 32nd year be one of the happiest for you my son.
Love you
How blessed you are to achieve the gift of enlightenment that most search for their entire time on this earth...but never quite get.
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday Amir
Blog post of the year, any blog, ever, forever. Happy birthday and god bless.
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday, you are a poet and thank you for your beautiful inspirational thoughts with us.
ReplyDeleteAdventure is right! So why fear it? I believe this adventure with the C has given you the time to restructure your path my gorgeous cuz and shake that fear that we have of the unknown!
ReplyDeleteFear immobilizes us, you MOVED yours. ;D
Happy Birthday again and again and again....XOXOXOXO
Happy Birthday Amir joon,just I can say thanks God.
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