I cried today and I'm not exactly sure why.
It might have been because of the cleansing feeling I felt from going to yoga both last night and then again with my mom this morning at 7am...and it was probably infused with the song "baby next time I'll be bulletproof" by La Roux...or yet maybe it might have been because I'm so excited to see what happens today and tomorrow, but yet somewhat scared about it at the same time...All I know is that as soon as my mom went into her room after our morning coffee and the song came on Pandora, I covered my eyes with my palms and cried to myself for myself.
Crying is a very cleansing and personal thing and I've grown to stop being scared about tears and allow my emotions come to the surface because when I'm at my most vulnerable is when I come to my most profound realizations.
Why I cried today I just don't know...but what I do know is that my biggest fan just happened to come out of her room to tell me something unimportant when she saw me cradling my eyes...and as natural as the sun rising in the morning, her first instinct was to come give me a big hug and allow me to cry with her, together...in truth it felt really nice and right then and there I realized that she is all my hopes, happiness and protection...all my guardian angels put into one defined body of love and today she allowed us to cry together...Thank you mom for knowing when to smile at me and when to cry with me, I love you.
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You are human, have a huge heart and are seeing life for the beautiful gift it is. Congratulations on finding your path & passions Amir joon.
ReplyDeleteNow stop making me cry - bad jens :)
I love you Ami.XO
ReplyDeleteI always knew Afsaneh is a very special person and I was sure she can raise good kids . Today you made me sure I was right.
ReplyDeleteYou two are too good! You and Afsaneh are in my toughts!
ReplyDeletewell, I can't cry again, not 2 times in one day!
ReplyDeleteI cried again when I read your beautiful piece but it was not a sad cry. It was a happy one......
last night your blog made me laugh so hard and tonight it made me cry with happiness and pride.
what's the plan tomorrow my son!!! ;-)
First off I must admit that I got a bit of catching up to do by reading this blog in reverse chronological order...I had to do some Facebook "Foozooli" to find this blog (of course you played GEEJ and forgot to send it to me this morning)...anyways...on the second note, I remember reading a while back that "the soul would have no rainbow had the eyes no tears" or something similar to that...both your mom and you have great souls and characters and I think that explains the tears and the beauty of this event...and lastly, the movie I was telling you about today is "The Diving Bell and the Butterfly"...there is also a book of it I believe but I would recommend you to watch the film...well hang in there bud, things could be much worse, like me sitting next to you and eating your brains out all day ;)
ReplyDeleteI love you Amir! I'm crying now...You are so blessed to have your mom. She is blessed to have you. What a powerful entry, my brother. I wish I could be there to wrap my arms around you too. My arms are needed elsewhere right now but I'm with you in my heart. Love, Richelle
ReplyDeleteSometimes, a good cry is the best medicine. And you are so fortunate to have such a wonderful mom (not to mention she's pretty lucky to have such a strong, amazing son).
ReplyDeleteSorry I slept for 12 hours yesterday and didn't get a chance to shave your head for your hakka dance :( In my case, this time sleep was the best medicine!
What a beautifull description of the strong relationship you share with your exceptional mother:)) Your tender heart and positivity is amazing!
ReplyDeleteAmir!
ReplyDeleteNurse Ashley told me about your blog and I am yet again so inspired by you!! I hope you are feeling well. I know the nurses tomorrow will take great care of you...I keep missing you!! Take care.
-Nurse Beth (from your original admission) :)
"Chashmha-ra bayad shost..." -Sohrab Sepehri
ReplyDeleteHuge kisses and hugs XOXOXO
Brody, that was so touching. You are so brave and strong and like your song, you ARE bulletproof. I mean, come on! What 4 year old falls out of a 2 story building window on to his head and walks away from it with a small headache and a non-existent bump?!? You're still that annoying little 4 year old who wouldn't share his toys with me. You'll walk away from this experience with barely a headache and a cool port scar to show off to the ladies. I love you more than you can imagine.
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